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Sun, 14 Jun 2009 05:08:05 GMT

I've been in & out of falling asleep at my book for hours.
I had a strange dream about hunting with Mike (or possibly someone else at points) on Tibia. We were in the same room playing on the computers, & I was having problems with the laptops not working. People were attacking me & I'd panic, but they'd walk away. It was weird & made no sense.
I just woke up from this dream, just the very end of it. I'm walking with Kendra & I put on my brother's glasses or something, & I look at this boy walking by. He has long dark hair & a button up shirt in a cute messy way, very cute. I talk the glasses off, saying how cute he is, but the moment I take them off, he changes - he has shorter hair, a different face, ripped up clothes. I'm confused. I say something to him, how he doesn't look anything like I thought, & he's a punk guy, suddenly, smirking & saying, "Well, of course you wouldn't like the way I dress." I do something, then as he's driving by, I say something to him & spit in his hair. He is amazed at it & is driving off in the backseat of his friend's car proclaiming, "I love you, I love you." at me. I smirk & turn to Kendra, who promptly tells me to look at her with the glasses on & tell me what I see. I look & she's wearing big platform heels or something. I laugh & am about to say so, but the dream ends.
I woke up really disoriented; the first few sentences of this are rushed & were typed when I was really just too dizzy.
G'night.

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 02:08:32 GMT

Today was nice, weird moments & all. It was a very make-shift get together of sorts.
We all crowded around my kitchen, basically. Cake was out, we realised we needed a candle because my little brother had melted the one bought for today. I ran upstairs for a random 2 candle I had, lolz. (Private entry follows with explanation.) Candle is in, I decided Mike would help Den blow out the candle. Switch of seats, pictures, yar yar. We ended up taking off Den's tie & shirt & plopping cake in front of him, all of us standing around him like the creepy people we are, trying to get him to mash it all over. He did not for the longest time. Everyone eventually looked away & he started to, haha.
Pictures, standing around. Cake. (Both Mike & Kendra hate cake. I hate them.)
Then we walked to the diner near my house & got fries & coleslaw, ate that, & then Kendra went downstairs to get picked up by her dad. Mike & I discussed what we'd watch, etc. She came up awhile later, pouting because he did not come yet. We were watching Twilight again, lolz. Kendra brought up the child support stuffs, btw. (Friends only entry follows.)
Kendra left. We've been watching Twilight since.
I have pictures, but I'm just too much of a lazy scrub to post them currently.
We're both sleepy, & I'm probably going to pass out soon.

Look, though. :)

Btw, any of the promised follow entries will be done another time, too sleepy.
G'night! :)

Happy end of your birthday, big sleeping baby over there. <-----

Sun, 22 Mar 2009 20:08:51 GMT

We just gave Den a nice bath, loofas & ducks included.
He's taking a short nap, then I'm going to dress him. (He's going to wear jeans, a long-sleeved striped blue undershirt, an over shirt that's green & blue, & his new dino tie & socks, lolz.)
I took out his train finally. He can't quite push himself around on it yet, but he stands behind it & shoves it all around, haha.
My mum bought two cakes, one with "Happy birthday, Aiden" on it & one just plain, white & blue. both are medium-sized, pretty good.
So far, it's all good, in a nice quiet way.
Mike's taking a shower, then going to Tibia some more until mum gets back.
My little brothers made a funky little cake-thing out of play-doh, lolz.
I have no idea where Kendra is, though. @.@
I don't know if I want anyone over now. Though, it was only suppose to be her & Ethan anyway. But we're not really doing anything & I can't figure out where she is. I want her to come, because I miss her & I know she's been all messed up lately, as well as loves Den to death, but I also have that tiny fear of a confrontation of some type. I'm not good with being sensitive & I know she's having a hard time lately. Plus, I know she doesn't like Mike, doesn't like when I get back with Mike, etc.
But I do want her here. I'm considering sucking it up & calling. (Okay, realistically, I am calling whether or not anything, she's coming. lolz.)
I'm considering wearing a skirt, also. :P

Sun, 22 Mar 2009 08:42:54 GMT

Happy birthday, Aiden!
>:"DDDDDDDDDD

Sat, 21 Mar 2009 05:45:18 GMT

I forgot to mention, I woke up to Mike picking my nose.
Post after Aiden goes to bed.

Fri, 20 Mar 2009 19:06:52 GMT

My room smells like death.
Neither of us has showered since Tuesday night.
There's all kinds of cups & chinese food thrown around.
There's not even a sheet on my bed.
I'm missing Rocky Horror tonight.
I have no monies at all, thank you sushi cravings between two sushi-lovers.
Aiden's birthday is in two days.
I'm happy, all in all.
We're dating again, btw.

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 03:26:22 GMT

I fell asleep with Aiden for a few minutes again by accident.
I woke up to him asleep on my arm, so when I went to move him, I realised I had fallen asleep with the book I was trying to read to him on my head, haha.
Aiden makes me happy.
I have tons to write about, but not tonight.
G'night. :)

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 01:35:50 GMT

I had such a nice day.
I'm too lazy for details & possibly am about to go to sleep because I'm exhausted.
Tomorrow, or later, or even just in ten minutes when I am in pjs but suddenly decide I am not tired, I will post all about court, thrift stores all morning, & my evening downtown with Kendra & Jenna.
Kisses! >:*

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 02:05:56 GMT

I took Den walking today, which was nice. It was sunny & pretty out.
I bought him a few baby books, a big multi-colored octopuss stuffed animal, & a Tigger (from Winnie the Pooh) pajama set.
Then spent the rest of the day inside, reading LOTR & taking a nice little nap, then IMing with Kendra & Ethan for most of the night.
We've been in a chat room about nothing for most of the night, lolz.
But now I am beginning to freeze up & pour on all the nerves about tomorrow morning.
I'm going to take a bath or shower, then come back, say good night to everyone, read for awhile, then fall asleep full of anxiety.
I'm going to the courthouse at 8am tomorrow.
@.@

G'night.

Sun, 15 Mar 2009 00:12:05 GMT

I'm excited about Aiden's so soonly upcoming birthday.
He's walking back & forth in my room, dragging my pants that are attached to the belt he refuses to put down, haha. He's so smart, he's amazing. He just learned to really walk this week & has been walking great since.
I'm so happy. >x)

My mum has convinced me to not bother buying anything especially expensive, so I'm going for clothes & supplies mainly, which is most practical with a drooling, toy-wrecking baby, but! I can not help myself & must spend atleast a good sum of money on atleast one silly toy, along with the misc. amounts of cheap-er toys I will be buying.

Oh, instead of going to Chuck E. Cheese on his birthday, we're just going to have a nice little birthday thing at my house. Family, Kendra, Ethan. Cake & all. Then, on the first, we're going to go to Chuck E. Cheese.
I'm happy, happy, happy.

Btw! The Dunkin Donuts right between mine & Kendra's house (10- minute drive altogether) is hiring & I feel that that is destiny calling my fucking name, lolz. ;)
So, I'm going there sometime between 6am-3pm tomorrow to talk to the manager, Janet .. or Janice? One or the other. Hopefully she feels the Universe tugging at her collar, whispering "Destinyyyy!" as much as I do. ;)
Good day, loves!

Eight days!

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 15:01:17 GMT

~~Seven~~ Eight places around Providence to apply at.
I will be productive this morning, I swear. x)

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 11:12:09 GMT

Good morning, 7am.
I love seeing you everyday. >:")

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 02:38:37 GMT

Tonight was nice.
See below.

Kendra surprised me by walking into my room right after school. :)
We spent the day in my room, IMing with Jenna, Juju, etc.
We mainly did our own silly things; me online, her watching an old movie with Audrey Hepburn in it, us laughing as Jenna insulted Kendra's dog, until Kendra was pouting & I kept laughing.
We were going to get Jenna down here to play with us & Aiden, but by the time everyone was dressed & Jenna got her car back, we realised Kendra would have to leave soon anyway. I knew I'd be too tired to be good company once Kendra left. So, I pulled the obnoxious habit of mine & had to tell her as she had already set out to just never mind it.
So, Kendra & I sat around, trying to figure out what to do. Aiden was already dressed & ready, so we decided we'd go on a walk, we still had awhile. We ended up walking to the sushi place near my house. Kendra worried the whole time about us getting back too late & her dad freaking out at us walking outside so late. But we made it in perfect time, about 15 minutes each way.
We were cute on the way, as we tend to be together. Aiden was in his carriage, covering in a thick blanket & silently staring at everything, Kendra pushing him, & me trying to keep pace with her aggressive lesbian power-walking as we stumbled across more gravel than sidewalk. We really are cute together, it's hard to even word the things we do together right.
Either way, we got home, Kendra wolfed down her sushi like a fat ass before I could even open my soy sauce packet. Hahaha. We ate, mum came home with more! fries & coleslaw, which we promptly devoured. Then her dad came & got her, as I was getting too tired to move much. I've been talking to Jenna on AIM since.

I'm sleeeeepy. @.@

I have to jot down this one great moment, then I'm going to lay in my bed, read LOTR for about five minutes before passing out.

Kendra was sitting in my computer chair, I was on my bed, & Aiden was in his crib. I was staring at Den over Kendra's head, & I told her to look at him, so as she was swiveling around, mid "Hey baby bo--" he waved right at us. I screamed! Straight screamed. I did not think about it, it happened before I realised. He jumped, stopped waving, & was just shocked, haha. Then Kendra & I burst out into excited laughter & exclamations & all that about him waving, & me screaming, & just how intense that one moment was, hahaha.
Den can now wave. >:")

I am an awful relay of story. :P
G'night, loves! :")

Btw, Juju is going to help us dread Kendra's hair! I'm all happy. I like Juju alot & though we don't talk much, I'd like to.

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 17:36:55 GMT

Oh! I plan on flooding some more later tonight about Justin, probably.
I just realised how much I'd like to delve into our creepy little story, haha.
I might just end up privating it though, maybe.
Either way, ten days until Den boy's birthday!

He's laying in his crib, with his cheek to the sheet, eyes sleepily open, smiling up at me when I walk over to smile at him. He's such a sweetened little love. He always gives this one big breathe right before going to bed, & I just heard it. :)

Okay, I'm probably flooding about Aiden later too. :")
I'm seeing Kendra today, though!

EDIT:// I forgot to mention that Amanda asked me to hang out with her & company last night, just as I was exhausted & heading to bed. I haven't talked to her in ages, it would have been nice to go. Damn ye now, becoming normal sleeping pattern! lolz. ;P

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 10:08:20 GMT

BTW,
*Throws fit.*
I don't want to change my ugly fucking hair. :"(
It's not fair!

Good night, again.

Wed, 11 Mar 2009 19:28:42 GMT

I'm up to nothing again today so far.
Discussing dread-stuffs with Kendra & talking to Andrew about hanging out for the first time ever, haha.
I'm probably going over Kendra's house around 6pm, after her doctor's appointment.
I want french fries with cole slaw sauce so bad.
I think .. I may go walk for some. >.>"
Later, lovers.

Wed, 11 Mar 2009 04:27:37 GMT

I slept through midnight, & am going to be passed out by 1am (when she was really born & when she asked me to call) so I texted Dee a Happy Birthday just now.
I'm so sleepy.
Back to bed.

Happy Birthday, Momma Dee! <3

Tue, 10 Mar 2009 16:11:15 GMT

I'm bored. Time does not move fast enough. 3pm! 3pm! 3pm!
I'm going to lure Kendra over to go play somewhere, I'm tired of my house again.

Tue, 10 Mar 2009 11:20:36 GMT

Oh, I woke up immediately thinking about Aiden's birthday, making me anxious.

Danielle's birthday is tomorrow.
MSI is on Friday.
Court is on Monday.
Aiden's birthday is next Sunday.
Justin's is the next day.

Oh, the month of March disturbs me. @.@

Mon, 09 Mar 2009 20:10:15 GMT

I haven't slept yet.
Court is in exactly a week.
I am so tired & half-blank currently.
Ethan is calling Kendra back for me, because she just called but I had a frozen moment where I just stared at the phone.
I feel okay. Unimportant, strange, awkward, misplaced, & all nerves.
I don't want to go to court. I don't want to hear Mike say anything bad, I don't want to have to say anything at all.
I think I'm going to delete Mike off of everything again today. Which means Justin & Tara will go with him again too.
I feel so strange. Awful strange, but in a quiet way. I should have slept.
I want to go to Kendra's.
I want to cry, more so, though.

Mon, 09 Mar 2009 04:18:04 GMT

I was out all day, then asleep, again, so here's another sum-up.
LJ, you are living in the past because of my freakish chronic-fatigue. ;)
I woke up early this morning, especially after staying up from 11pm until 6am, but I was awake. Kendra woke up shortly after me.
My mum decided she was going to take Aiden for a walk on the bike path near my house, so we decided we'd go along. We left at noon, walked until 1:30pm, taking pictures of pretty trees, then went to a Wendy's on the way, then walked back. We walked until 3pm, which was nice even if I was tired & complaining.
I was exhausted when we got back, very tired. We were going to take pictures for Jenna, but I was too tired & we gave up quickly.
We put paint on Aiden's hands & tried hard to get fun hand-prints. We almost failed, outside of one or two, haha. It was cute though, we were screaming & all over the place as he tried to paint-coatedly touch everything around, haha.
We watched Harry Potter & the Prisoner of Azkaban on tv until her dad called & I fell asleep with Aiden momentarily, then went back to bed without him as she got picked up.
I just woke up. Going back to laying in bed with a movie on.
G'night.

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 06:00:28 GMT

They've changed the Myspace picture uploader & it's awful, sitting here open, telling me 760 kilobytes of 1.57 megabytes have been sent so far even though it's been about ten+ minutes & the bar only has two little squares shown so far as far as progress.
Well. I have time to kill now.
I was going to put up the pictures in here, but figured Myspace is faster, which it isn't now after all. Fucking Tom. :O
I just had some cold chinese food. My left eye is blurring alot, I should take out my contact. Beetlejuice is on. I'm tired.
I'll put up any un-myspaced pictures tomorrow or later if I wake up again.
Ugh @ Myspace. I'm too tired for this.

Fri, 06 Mar 2009 17:32:12 GMT

I'm going low-key for tonight, I suppose.
My outfit is probably going to be;
black see-through-y long sleeved shirt,
black tight jeans,
leopard-print belt!,
scarf of some sort,
maybe my leopard-print furry vest,
& I'm considering my big blue & black moon boots, haha.
I won't be dressed up, but I will be taller than usual? Hahaha.
Tonight should be good. :)
I wish it would start already.

Fri, 06 Mar 2009 15:44:37 GMT

I'm awake! :")!
This is great. I am up, Aiden is up, the sun is up!
I'm going to give Den a bath, then figure out outfit options as I clean my room up abit. :)

Thu, 05 Mar 2009 19:11:49 GMT

I bought a leopard print furry vest, zebra-print furry high heels (which are not as ugly as they sound), some underwear, & slacks for tonight.
Aiden started screaming as I was trying on clothes & would not stop the whole next twenty minutes. He was screaming & throwing himself around. It was horrible, it scared the shit out of me. He's probably just teething, but it was awful. I've never seen him so bad. He turned purple-red & was spitting everywhere. He didn't stop until just now, when we finally got home & laid him down to change him & all.
I'm exhausted, anxious, & worried. I have to shower & I basically blew off Tom again, I think. >.<"